It’s cool to see how engaged your fans still are, even after so much time away. Was there any uncertainty or fear that you’ve been away for so long and maybe people have moved on?
Yeah, 100%. I don't have any expectations of anyone. I don’t place too much weight on the idea that since I’m doing this thing, I’m deserving of this other thing. There are a lot of things being thrown at people all the time, and for me to have not thrown anything into the stream for over half of a decade and to come back and to have people who are very much still tapped in and very receptive to what I'm doing? Yeah, it's a big surprise. It's a pleasant surprise, and I'm very, very grateful for that. But for sure, I was super anxious about saying, “Yeah, so I finished this thing,” and people being like, “Alright, whatever. I’ve long since found other shiny new toys to play with.” So yeah, it’s great and I don’t take it for granted at all.
Just from hearing you explain things, it’s clear that your gap between albums wasn’t a strategy or some attempt to conjure up this image of mystery. But do you think that does make people more curious about you, because you’ve always kept some distance? That’s pretty rare for an artist today.
Sure. I’m just trying to be true to myself. The whole mysterious thing? Sometimes when I would talk to people, they’d bring it up as a branding sort of thing—like, “It’s cool that you’re doing that for your brand,” as if it’s not actually just that I’m a somewhat quiet, somewhat shy person. I’m not the loudest in any room I go into.
To go into what you’re saying about how that may potentially drum up more interest, I think that’s just human nature. If a person whispers something, maybe it encourages someone to lean in a bit more to hear what they’re saying. Others may be like, “Oh, I didn’t hear that, so I’ll just move on.” They don’t care. They gravitate toward louder people or people who are more forthcoming.
That’s something that I’ve been trying to actively work on because I would like to be more forthcoming, and I would like to be less guarded. Those aren’t things that serve me that much in my personal life. I don’t know, the whole mystery thing isn’t some kind of agenda I’m trying to push. It’s just kind of how I am.
When I first met you, it was so early, I think you were living in Detroit and it seemed like you really just wanted to figure out how to make music professionally. Now that you're doing that, has the goalpost moved? Did you realize you wanted more than just that?
I was living in Garden city, a suburb of Detroit. I probably don’t say enough how much the suburbs of Michigan deeply influenced me. For a vast majority of my upbringing, I lived in Detroit, but I would go to school in the suburbs because the Detroit school system was really buns. My mom was like, “Yo, it's slightly better in the suburbs, so I'm going to have you go to school out there, and we'll do the longer commute in the morning.”
But yeah, I think the goalposts have definitely moved. If I were to compare it to something, let’s say you’re an upcoming basketball player and you’re fighting your whole life to make it into the NBA. When you actually get into the NBA, then it becomes honing your craft and getting a certain feeling of day-to-day growth in what you're doing.
Once you reach one of those goals, it almost feels like you made it. But now I’ve just been trying to hone my craft and feel like I’m fully in service to music. Not to get too woo woo with it, but having the opportunity to work with one of the core influential things in our lives—which is just literally vibrations and how you configure vibrations to bring reactions out of people...The fact that I get a chance to do that every day, I’m still dumbfounded that I am allowed to only focus on that. I really, really, really, really, really take a lot of pride in trying to do it in a way that feels worthwhile. I always want to feel like I’m serving music, never taking my opportunity for granted, and hopefully I’m pushing things forward, throwing new things into the fold. To me, it’s about trying to serve.
I wanted to talk more about Michigan. I’ve heard you describe your childhood as being a little isolated, being from a family of immigrants. Can you describe what you were like as a kid? Were you quiet and creative as a kid?
Yeah, I was super quiet, super, super, super quiet.
My mom was very involved in the immigrant community in Detroit, specifically the Caribbean community. I would often go to these gatherings of people, these functions that she would organize. She's a really outgoing person and a leader, so I think naturally some of those things trickle down to me. But also, I would be in those spaces and I'd very much be like, “Okay, I'm not the one talking here. I'm not the leader here. I'm the child of that person, so I'm in the shadows. I'm hanging, I'm chilling, I'm doing my thing.”
And I was definitely very creative as a kid. I made my little fake comic books and whatnot, and was super into drawing, and from a really early age was into music. I didn't know that early on that I actually was trying to make music. I was still in my head like, “Oh yeah, I'm going to grow up. I'm going to be six foot six. I'm going to play in the NBA” and all this shit. I was very much in that head space with it.
Growing up in Michigan, I saw a lot of the adults in my life go through the whole blue collar grind that strips them of their dreams, stripping anything outside of just, “I got my union, I got my fallbacks, I’m financially secure enough to hold it down.” When you ask about rebellion, that’s what I was rebelling against.
I didn’t want to work in a factory. I didn’t want to be paving roads and whatnot. And again, that’s not to knock anyone who was doing that. I have a very deep respect for those people, and I recognize 100% what the thinking is when you’re in those situations and those are the jobs you’re working. But I’m a super sensitive dude, and I know if I ended up in that sort of scenario—not to be morbid or anything—I wouldn’t last that long as a person.
I fought like hell to find something outside of that, to be not only my career, but my focus in life.
Can you tell me about the album title, Heaven Ain't Sold?
The whole project is an accumulation of trials and tribulations, and it’s somewhat of a loose coming-of-age sort of story. The idea was that Heaven Ain’t Sold works both as me recognizing that in order to reach any sort of contentment or nirvana or any of these concepts, it’s not something that you can just buy. You have to work at it. You have to go through life and learn about yourself and your desires to reach some sort of peace in your life. It’s not something that fits within the confines of capitalism.
And then also, Heaven being this place that you want to reach, they’re not sold on you as a person. Maybe you’re not ready for Heaven yet. You’re still going through life, hoping that when it comes time for the “judgment” or whatever, then they’ll be accepting of you. But at this point, you’re still just doing your thing, living your life.