When and how did you start making music?
It took me a while to actually connect my love for singing with my love for writing. When I was young, I thought everyone could kind of sing, and my writing was more just to create little worlds and stories. I must have been about 14 when I went to the studio the first time because there’s just a fire that comes around that age where you want to be more than what you know.
It was in a room, probably at my dad's or something. He would play a lot of music all the time, and I would just put my headphones in and write music. I would always start with words first, and then a melody would come to me by being in silence. It helps if there's no sound around, because that's when I hear it. That's when I can receive the best things.
Taking music very seriously happened later, when I was 18 or 19. You know, you get out of your bad teenage relationship and you're like, "No, I got it. I want to be my own person and go into the world and really tell a story."
Do you remember what you made?
Yeah. My first song, which I listened back to quite recently, was way too sexual for me being 14 [Laughs]. I'm like, "Why did I do all that?" Because in my writing, I would be quite deep about things, like asking real questions about the world. Then my first song was like, just too sexual for that age, which is really funny. But I also liked it, because I mean, you're 14, and you're exploring that, so it was very honest. And to me, that's the most important thing. If you make a song, it's your time in that moment and your real thoughts. But it's funny when I hear it back, it's just way too much [Laughs].
People see the headline “signed to pgLang” but they don't see everything that came before it. What did those years actually look like?
There's a long story before I got signed. My journey starts at 17, because I quit school to do music at the time. I mean, I finished my first school, and then I wanted to continue university, but I was like, “No, I need to do what feels right.” I had nightmares about not doing it, and it was very serious to me.
I went to music school, but it was really hard back home. It wasn't easy to find people to create with that felt right, who had similar dreams and were willing to work really hard for it, which I did at that age. So I went on to create my world before I got the music right, because I could sing but I couldn't produce at that age. I just wanted to know what it was visually going to look like, and have an artist name. At the time, I had Moon as an artist name because all my music was quite dark and sensual, like during the night type of thing, and Moon is part of my name in Dutch. It was all bedroom kind of music, but I couldn't find the right people to create with.
When I was about 19, I found my producer that I made Papercut with. His name is Daan [Zinkhaan], and we're from the same city. It's so great to work with people that have ambition and ideas, but also have the work ethic, which is not a very Dutch thing. You can dream, but you don't really do it, because it's quite comfortable to live there without having to go out. You don't have to make it out there, and I think that creates a culture of just doing what you're doing without going way further. It was really good to find a producer that could bring a sound to my world. We worked for six years before we even released anything. We really dedicated ourselves to creating a sound that we feel would change something, because that's all I really care about in this thing. I really have an intention with what I do, and that just takes time.
Along that journey, were people recognizing your talent? Or were you keeping it very under the radar?
People would see that I had something going on, just by how I expressed myself in daily life. But I was keeping my music very low key. I wouldn't share it with anyone, because I really felt like we were onto something. Like, “We have a sound now. We can't share it because people are going to take it from us.” It was very serious to us at the time, especially when you're that young.
Since we didn’t share it with anyone, people thought I wasn’t doing anything. I would say I do music, but they were like, "Yeah, you don't," or, "You're too insecure to share it." But it wasn't fear-based. I remember thinking, "I want to get really good at this, because I care about it. I want to see how far I can make it with this, and honor it by getting good at it." That's why I went into the room and just did the work.